Lannie

Lannie collapsed today and was taken to the hospital. I miss him already. We are always together so I really don't know what to do without him.

I just got a rollator. I've resisted getting one for a long time because I thought it would make me feel old but it gives me mobility that I didn't have without it. The rollator actually makes me feel younger because I can go places now. I've really missed being able to get out of the house.

God is cruel?

I just finished rereading Desperation by Stephen King and in the story a minister tells a young boy who is just learning about God, that God is cruel. I've heard people say this all my life and and I just don"t understand it. In the story the boy's family has been killed one-by-one by a monster. In that context God does seem cruel, but what if there's a bigger picture that we can't see. What if what's waiting for us after death is something so much better than life on this earth. Then it wouldn't really be cruelty.

I know it seems cruel but we can't really know if we can't see the bigger picture. If we have faith in God we've got to believe that there's a reason for the things that happen. God gives us the free will to do want he wants or not to do it. So we can't blame God if things don't go the way we want them to. I don't understand how someone who says 'God is love' can say it's His fault when bad things happen, that it's His will when tragedies occur. If God is love then He can't be cruel because love is not cruel.

What would you do if you won millions?

What would you do if you won a lottery of multiple millions of dollars? This is a little game my husband and I like to play. How would it change your life. It's not possible that your life would stay the same. Not if you won millions. You couldn't just go on as if nothing had changed unless you already had millions of dollars, to start with.

People would be coming out of the woodwork to get your money. Suddenly everyone you ever met would be your friend. I think it would be amusing for a little while. But I think it would get old really fast.

I can't imagine what it would be like. To have enough money to do just about anything you wanted to do. Where would you begin?

Any Ideas?

WatMuzzer's Woad:

10/05/10 I have an un-suppressable need to write. I have absolutely no idea why because I'm sure I have very little that most people would want to read about.

I'm not an expert at anything. I don't have secret knowledge about anything (as far as I know). I'm not even really-good at anything. I am pretty-good at some things but they're not the things I have a need to talk about.

But here I am at the beginning of "the journey." I don't know where the road I'm standing on will lead. All I do know is I can't go back where I came from. That part of the road is blocked. I can only go forward. There may be forks in the road or it might be straight I can't tell from here. I can't see more than a step or two in front of me. I'm not sure how I got where I am. I'm not even sure where I am exactly, but I know that I must stay on the road. If I leave the road I'll end up back here on the first step of the journey. So I suppose I might as well take a step. The sooner I begin the sooner I will arrive.

[Step]

Ok, having taken a step I can see that beginning to write was the first step. So far so good. I doubt all the steps will be this easy. I do hope it will get more interesting too.

The Flu Bug Got Me!

I'm just getting over the flu. It's the worst flu I've had in about 25 years (since I was married). For some reason it affected my memory more than any other I can remember. But that may just be state dependence. I was unable to hold a thought in my mind for a minute at a time. I had been organizing my scrapbooking supplies before the flu hit me, but I had to give up on that because I literally couldn't remember what I was doing for more than a few seconds at a time. It's going away now, Thank God. So I hope to be able to get back to the organizing.

Colonization

Sid Meiers has finally released an updated version of Colonization! In the early 90's this game was my all time favourite of the civilization genre games! I hated to give it up when I upgraded my OS to Windows XP, but it just didn't play properly. Now I hope to enjoy the addiction anew! I just read an article in Maximum PC Magazine reviewing the new game. The reviewer gave it an 8, but if it is anything like the original Colonization (and it sounds like it is) I'll give it a 10! Tomorrow I'll begin my search to find the game.